sweetie o'leary

dear gentle reader

2011-02-21T20:05:00.000-08:00

thank you for coming here. I want you to know, you are perfect. And so am I. I also want you to know, I will be away from this blog for a few months while I focus on a collection of paintings about the water. I hope to have the collection complete by high summer. I must be alone with all those blues. But I will return and I hope you will too.

you have to wait for low tide if you want to get to the other side.

2011-02-21T20:00:00.000-08:00

I will leave a note everytime I go in the ocean alone.

2011-01-11T16:31:00.000-08:00

my sensibility has been skinned alive

2011-01-11T16:29:00.000-08:00

he said he was a sound architect. I said I was a word plumber.

2010-12-15T22:07:00.000-08:00

if anything gets weird, we leave.

2010-12-15T22:06:00.000-08:00

I see evidence everywhere.

2010-11-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

even if you asked me to, I wouldn't remember you.

2010-11-12T08:31:00.001-08:00

I didn't forget your birthday. I tossed 35 tiny clam shells into an icy river.

2010-10-31T21:08:00.000-07:00

a winter jog to the buddha and back home.

2010-10-31T21:06:00.000-07:00

he told me my love of quiet is a mark of wildness.

2010-10-31T20:37:00.000-07:00

I'm not tired. I'm just really excited about resting.

2010-10-12T23:00:00.000-07:00

I heard you whisper into the water, "you are majestic."

2010-10-12T22:55:00.000-07:00

he told me to ask myself: is it worth it? Then he told me: it just isn't.

2010-09-19T20:02:00.000-07:00

the kitchen butter was already melted from the humidity before it reached my toast and I said out loud to no one "see, life is easy."

2010-09-19T19:48:00.000-07:00

finally, a safe space to talk about white hot laser beams.

2010-09-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

I had that dream where the bees make honey from my old mistakes.

2010-09-19T19:38:00.000-07:00

part of the problem was that we existed mostly in each other's imagination.

2010-09-19T19:32:00.000-07:00

she casually mentioned over coffee that she had been writing monthly letters to Siegfried and Roy since 1999.

2010-09-06T10:16:00.001-07:00

you'll know when things have changed because it will smell different.

2010-08-30T08:31:00.000-07:00

he spent his whole life studying linguistics but eventually moved to Puerto Rico and won the electronic lottery.

2010-08-30T08:24:00.000-07:00

as if we aren't fragile enough on sunday nights.

2010-08-23T21:25:00.001-07:00

it's true. he really did say 'flowchart to my heart'.

2010-08-23T21:22:00.000-07:00

he knew about everyone looking for me, moments before I fall asleep.

2010-08-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

it was the misplaced wig that made me leave and never come back.

2010-08-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

your problem is that you're a free spirit trapped in the body of woody allen.

2010-08-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

you have to find your reason for getting up in the morning. you have to find your toaster strudel.

2010-07-31T17:28:00.000-07:00

it was the part about dying from ripe strawberries that made me sit next to you.

2010-07-31T17:24:00.000-07:00

I thought it was amazing. they thought it was despicable.

2010-07-31T17:15:00.000-07:00

it's the motivation that repels me and I think I can convey that best with a british accent and direct eye contact.

2010-07-25T23:50:00.000-07:00

she left me a note about hopelessness taped to a south east telephone pole.

2010-07-25T23:44:00.000-07:00

I am a child of plenty, you will not be needing my debit card.

2010-07-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

I said I want to live near sauive island, not burgerville.

2010-07-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

no, the worst part is being replaced with such vigor.

2010-07-19T21:56:00.000-07:00

I am an interloper in the details you collected.

2010-05-17T20:14:00.000-07:00

just a gentle reminder that there are no wrong answers when you're dealing with a dragon on the roof.

2010-05-17T20:01:00.000-07:00

if you ever need to go somewhere you can't go, I can take you.

2010-05-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

my neighbors haven't brought up the fact that you left your bloodied sword at the back door.

2010-05-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

the first time we met, she spoke to my bones and said she'll carry my heavy heart for awhile.

2010-05-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

it only takes 3 hours a day to become dope at this.

2010-05-05T21:02:00.000-07:00

you be the adult this time, I'll do it next time.

2010-04-26T12:39:00.001-07:00

I'm trying not to sit next to you.

2010-04-26T12:38:00.000-07:00

I just said, no dirt on the lawn.

2010-04-26T12:37:00.000-07:00

it's like alchemy but in reverse.

2010-04-22T22:46:00.000-07:00

I self-identify as a snowstorm.

2010-04-22T22:41:00.000-07:00

it was the anonymous pile of cookies that kept her from jumping off the railing.

2010-04-07T13:30:00.000-07:00

don't look at the bird crap on my shoulder, just listen to what I'm telling you.

2010-04-07T13:29:00.001-07:00

the telegraph said she was brokeneck exhausted.

2010-04-07T13:28:00.000-07:00

I can't stop staring at your taxes.

2010-04-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

sometimes stolen things are destroyed.

2010-04-05T09:17:00.000-07:00

she squeezd out the guts for me.

2010-04-05T09:15:00.000-07:00

everything I wanted was spilling down the stairs of a penthouse 636 miles away.

2010-02-25T20:48:00.000-08:00

I feel like hope is a hamster.

2010-02-25T20:44:00.000-08:00

the secret under the pillow said 'i miss you'.

2010-02-22T18:13:00.000-08:00

we left each other notes in the rolodex.

2010-02-22T18:12:00.001-08:00

you couldn't think of a word more opposite to describe me.

2010-02-22T18:09:00.000-08:00

writing postcards from one end of the boxcar to another for old times sake.

2010-02-15T18:28:00.000-08:00

I've done stupider things for worse reasons.

2010-02-15T18:26:00.000-08:00

hey bob, dinner is still at 6pm, stop by when you can.

2010-02-14T12:47:00.000-08:00

we both announced over the brussel sprouts that we look exactly alike.

2010-02-14T12:44:00.000-08:00

I mentioned over stew that the first condom was a sheep's bladder.

2010-02-14T12:37:00.000-08:00

we are like 7 trust falls away from that conversation.

2010-02-03T05:28:00.000-08:00

we were both topless and waving at each other from our kitchen windows.

2010-02-02T22:58:00.000-08:00

the least you could do is forget about the sea lions.

2010-01-26T15:50:00.002-08:00

apologies don't have dream sequences.

2010-01-26T15:50:00.001-08:00

take your shirt off and relax a minute.

2010-01-26T15:48:00.000-08:00

i wasn't out in high school, but i was on the swim team.

2010-01-19T15:18:00.000-08:00

[title by guest blobber: frantelope]

password: tenderloin

2010-01-19T15:15:00.001-08:00

[title by guest blobber: frantelope]

i keep coming back to it and it's always about loss.

2010-01-19T15:02:00.000-08:00

[title by guest blobber: frantelope]

I sleep with a jar of hot water under the covers.

2010-01-14T14:42:00.000-08:00

it's worse than sun damage. it's jealousy.

2010-01-14T14:39:00.000-08:00

I chose desire.

2010-01-05T21:45:00.000-08:00

if you feel like you're getting swept out to sea, just go with it.

2010-01-05T21:43:00.000-08:00

everything is optional.

2010-01-05T21:40:00.000-08:00

to me.

2009-12-24T09:37:00.000-08:00

I didn't think it was you until I saw the stir-up pants.

2009-12-22T22:37:00.000-08:00

go on. you can have it.

2009-12-22T22:29:00.001-08:00

did you know welding is actually repressed lightening?

2009-12-22T22:25:00.000-08:00

leave out the part about gluten injustice.

2009-12-22T22:24:00.000-08:00

he said he was a lip model.

2009-12-22T22:10:00.000-08:00

I get the part about two wizards lost in the snow but we're going to have to go over the grief-soaked seeds of authentic beingness one more time.

2009-12-14T21:44:00.000-08:00

I want you to grow out your hair for my birthday. and I want it to be a surprise.

2009-12-14T21:37:00.000-08:00

halfway to the end, I imagine.

2009-12-14T21:36:00.000-08:00

if you get a better offer, take it.

2009-12-13T11:48:00.001-08:00

it's not like heaven or anything.

2009-12-08T20:19:00.000-08:00

this is starting to feel like one of those tar pits the dinosaurs died in.

2009-12-08T20:16:00.000-08:00

I am so glad you exist.

2009-12-03T21:41:00.001-08:00

eat on a paper plate today, it's gonna work out.

2009-12-03T21:38:00.000-08:00

you're beyond red flag. you're a red canopy.

2009-12-01T07:42:00.000-08:00

so what'll it be? and don't pretend you can't hear me.

2009-12-01T07:41:00.000-08:00

I went from plain to everything.

2009-12-01T07:40:00.000-08:00

jump out when I least expect it and say 'now I've got you'.

2009-11-29T22:43:00.000-08:00

this is not a love affair. but I am tortured and passionate.

2009-11-28T12:53:00.000-08:00

no. what I'm trying to tell you is that I'm open to the idea of living in another dimension. temporarily.

2009-11-28T12:48:00.000-08:00

the best part about that summer is that I don't remember a thing.

2009-11-28T12:45:00.000-08:00

she doesn't usually swear so she must be nervous.

2009-11-24T23:18:00.000-08:00

[photo by guest blogger: doctor sleep]

you will notice my life involves no other people.

2009-11-24T23:00:00.000-08:00

[photo by guest blogger: doctor sleep]

the makeout room is terrifying.

2009-11-24T22:50:00.001-08:00

[photo by guest blogger: doctor sleep]

intimacy. it can be a real setup.

2009-11-19T22:34:00.000-08:00

okay. but then I have to go home and do my kegels.

2009-11-19T21:35:00.000-08:00